Firstly, I apologize for not posting or replying much lately, but I swear I’ve got valid reasons! It started with my heart and lungs going funky on me, and then midterms got stressful, and then I started spending hours making really beautiful dinners instead of going on tumblr, and then finals and exams happened. Life gets busy sometimes, in weird and sudden ways, but I’m excited to say that even with the stress of school and people and life, I’m happy. Things are good. Great.
Hows school? Fantastic. Working hard. Paying off
Hows family? Closer and closer every month
Hows food? It’s being eaten. Which is pretty cool
Hows recovery? Better and better each day, minus a slip or two here and there. I’m doing things that I would never allow myself to do before. I’ve recently eaten in public, I’ve let non-ed-related doctors weigh me, I’m letting go of so many behaviours that I had built up associated to my ED and it’s incredibly thrilling to be able to overcome them. It really gives me more and more hope that everyone else I know who has suffered, and so many of you here, can find a healthier and happier place. I didn’t think I would. It was just talk for so long - now it’s happening.
Breathing and Lists
Tomorrow I have 3 finals.
Today I had 1. Yesterday I had 1.
(idk when the sixth is. soon. next week. far enough.)
Have you ever found fear and stress and worry and doubt building up and up and up that you sit useless in front of an empty document? Have you ever stared at the blank screen not even remembering what your thesis was? Have you ever felt so sure you just couldn’t do it - it’s over, there’s honestly no hope at all.
If you have. The have you ever noticed how just stepping away and breathing makes the world of a difference. Sitting back, relaxing for a moment, taking a few deep inhales and exhaling all the pressure in your mind and body. Then making a list, a kind one, not one that purposely worries you more. A list of what you actually need to do, and when you’d like to have it by. Just a light form of planning, nothing forceful, simply reminding yourself of what’s on the go.
Every time I start to worry. I step back.
And it has done wonders for me.
ARE YOU READY FOR 2013’S HEALTHY FOR THE HOLIDAYS?
it’ll be up in 24 hours ! (6pmET Monday)
and love it <3
Anonymous asked:It sounds so easy when people say "just start exercising" and "its easy to eat healthy" however, i'm having such a hard time with it mentally. I'm not happy with my body what so ever and i've been getting worse with eating and i rarely exercise. I always find an excuse to not exercise and eat terribly. I've gotten my self into a rutt and i'm feeling really upset about it. Do you have any suggestions on how i can help this?
It does sound a lot easier than it is - but trust me - getting started is the hardest part. Once you get into the habit of pushing yourself, or at least pulling yourself out of the rut, you’ll become so self-motivating. Nothing makes me want to go to the gym more, than going to the gym, feeling so good, and wanting to go back. Nothing makes me want to eat properly more than making a really great dinner, and getting excited about what I can have the next day. You need to snap out of the whole “tomorrow” thing and just do it. Do something so new and different. Jog to the grocers. Like right now (unless its 1am where you are, too). Get some fresh foods. Try it for one night. One dinner. I’m sure you’ll feel so much better, so motivated by the fact that you did it just the once, and you’ll keep doing it. You do it because it feels good, it feels right, and it gets easier and easier each time.
This goes for weight loss just as much as it goes for recovery. If I get the right foods in my household, I’m inspired to eat proper, nutritious and filling meals. And I don’t fear them - I enjoy them.
If you’re eating terribly, stop getting those foods. Or at least try to indulge in them less. Find it hard to say no? Don’t buy them. Just don’t have them around if they are a ‘problem’. Give yourself what your body is begging for, and what your mind knows it needs.
Nutrients. Activity. And a little self-love.
Anonymous asked:I am 230 pounds and covered in stretch marks from lots of steroids and chemotherapy treatments. I want to lose weight, but am scared if I do I will have so much loose skin to feel decent at all. I am 5 foot 7 and 19 years old. Will this happen, and if I try to get healthier, would juicing be a good outlook? Thank you! I just need help, I just don't know how to feel beautiful anymore.
I know this is going to sound so cookie-cutter and so cliché, but your beauty is always going to come from the inside, I know you want that beauty projected on the outside too, but it starts with loving yourself, caring about yourself and your happiness. To be perfectly honest, I don’t know too much about stretch marks or anything of that sort, but I feel like you need to determine what you’d be more comfortable with. Some excess weight, OR the potential of looser skin, and some marks showing. Think of which one is better for you and your health.
As far as juicing goes, you really shouldn’t count on juicing as your primary source of nutrients. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with eating solid foods and proper meals, that are just higher in nutritional value, and lower in saturated fats and sweeteners. Slowly making changes to your diet, and exercise level, will make such a difference in your body and your mentality. Please be safe though, as it sounds as though you may have other things going on medically, and your safety and wellbeing always, always, have to come first.
ps. you’re already beautiful. always will be.
hihihii, i have a question. well, more like i don't know where to start with becoming fit/losing weight? help pls.
It depends where you’re at now. I would need to know everything about your past and present, habits and struggles, to give you a really good and personalized answer. And since I don’t know it all, here’s the general solution. Just start. Start moving. Start eating better. Empty the negative things from your life, whether its the habit of having a bag of chips on the couch every night, whether it’s sneaking chocolate milk at 2am, maybe it’s just not going to the gym or not being active. Get right of those habits one by one. Starting right now. Pick something to alter, and you’ll already be one step ahead of where you were five minutes ago.
Anonymous asked:I don't want this to sound mean but now that you are "healthier" and "better"... are you fat? are you happier?
That’s always going to sound terrible no matter how it’s worded. But no. I’m not “fat”. And yes, I am “happier”.
Here’s the thing about recovery. When you think about it while you’re sick, you see it as this crazy out of reach world, a place where healthy and naive people live. Being “better” sounds impossible, until you start to get better. Because when you’re really doing it, when you’re really on the road to recovery, your body changes while your mind changes. You don’t wake up one day, forty-pounds heavier, and entirely weight restored, and then have to learn to cope with it mentally. Every food you eat for the “first time in years”, gives you motivation, and maybe later on down the road it gives you a pound in weight, and thats a good pound. Because being healthier and feeling better means you can live a life you’ve been missing out on.
I hate the idea that recovery means being the opposite of what you once were. I was sick, yes, quite, for a long time. I’m still in recovery. I’m still getting better every single day. I still have dark hours, and days, and yeah, a week here and there, but you keep pushing and pushing and the benefits outweigh everything else.
Since working harder. Since eating. I’ve been able to go to the gym and enjoy a work out without becoming obsessive about it. I’ve been able to eat, to eat in public (like wow. that was a huge step last week. amazing. so proud of my own self), I’ve been able to go out with friends and have a drink and have fun and not be afraid of everything. I’ve been able to be in this amazing relationship without being afraid of the man I’m with, without being concerned about what I’m doing or what he’s thinking or what I need to hide. Because I don’t need to hide anything. Getting better means letting go of those behaviours that were so secretive. Every single little step of getting better opens a hundred doors to things you couldn’t do before.
So no. I’m not “fat”. And yes. I’m happy. So happy. Because I have my life back. I think this picture could answer your question too.
Anonymous asked:Okay so I do the "Weighless By Winter" thing and "Skinny By Summer" stuff every year but I was wondering, since you've changed a ton in body and mind since when you first made them, if there were any tweaks or if you wanted to make a new one entirely? I think that'd be super fun. #justasuggestion
I’ve definitely changed my views a lot so I think that’s a good idea. When I made them I did so in an ‘okay’ mindset, but not an entirely healthy one. So maybe nows the time to refresh ‘weightless by winter’. Want to help me come up with a more appropriate but still catchy title? How does Healthy for the Holidays sound? Happy for the Holidays? What do you think?
How do I start a diet?
You don’t start a diet because at the end of the day, you don’t want that title attached to yourself. You don’t want to be on a diet. You don’t want to be dieting. Maybe you want to make changes to your lifestyle, to your eating and exercise habits, but you don’t just want a diet.
To start making changes, you need to stop pushing off the deadline and instead, start altering some of your habits right now. You need to determine what will help motivate you, what’s holding you back, what each goal will be, and a reasonable time in which you should aim to achieve it by.
Think of the foods that you abuse, and slowly cut them out - or find a way you can enjoy them appropriately. Think of the foods missing from your intake and bring them back in. Love chicken, hate veggies? What about a chicken caesar wrap, or a meaty stir fry. Find the things you want and the things your body needs, and combine them.
Because you deserve the nutrients, and you deserve to reach these goals and to feel better about yourself, without the word diet.
I know I’ve gotten quiet so…
ideas? inspiration? questions? need advice or a push? or just love?